Tag: love

Memories From The Heart

Quarantine has not been too terrible at all. After all, when we don’t have control of what’s going on in the world, it’s best to try to do something that takes the mind away from the issues

My husband and I decided to give a new look to our home, so we painted the inside. It was a longggg project because our painter’s helper didn’t show up to help. The poor guy was on his own for 1 1/2 weeks. But again, I feel good, no need to rush and somehow we helped each other. We took time to go through so much stuff and I found beautiful memories from childhood, with my family, friends and more. Pictures with my high school students (my kids, as I call them) and those wonderful challenging days. Many of my kids are in my FB, today with their own families.

I also took time to go over a painting I did. It’s an oil on a 14 x 16 canvas from my mother. That picture has so much memories of my beloved mom who in July 29 will be 4 years in heaven. The picture was taken on Christmas days 2015, while she was at the hospital recovering from a small fracture in her lumbar area. On that day, she was in so much pain. I invited her to take the challenge on the wheelchair and go outside the hospital room to watch the Christmas decorations. She reluctantly accepted it. Ouch, that was painful! To my surprise, she paid no attention to the lights but to a little baby girl. I could see that she wanted to be close that cute baby. Her mother also noted it but hey, it’s a hospital and who knows what’s the problem with this elderly woman, I think crossed by her mind. The baby’s mother asked me what’s wrong with my mom and when I told her, then, she brought the baby to my mom. It was like a miracle healing. The pain was gone and my mom was so happy. I painted her like and angel, because that’s what she was to my mom at that moment. My painting is now getting framed and my house clean and neat. I’m here sharing my story with you to tell you that quarantine has not been what I would have chosen, but so far, I have made the best of it. Have you?

Forever in my Heart
I Love You Mom.

A Letter To Heaven.

Dear Mom,
Today is the first year without you. I don’t know how I feel. At times I cry and at times I smile. I’m kind of confused.

I’m sad because I miss your presence and I’m happy you are in a better place with the Lord Jesus Christ. I miss your smile, your hug, your voice and your tender caress. I miss not seeing you singing and dancing, what you liked the most!
It comforts me thinking that you may be having a big celebration in heaven with mama Cleme, as you used to call your mom, and the rest of the gang. At the same time, I wish I could be talking with you by phone today as we used to do every day. You see. I don’t know if I’m selfish or I’m just so happy you’re finally reunited with your loved ones and yes, with mama Cleme! That woman you barely enjoyed because she also went to eternity when you were just 6. That woman you never stopped talking about. I still remember that when you became ill, you called her each time you were afraid. Just like a little girls… I hear you say “mommy, mommy Cleme don’t let me fall…” I can’t imagine how much you missed her while growing up. You even called my dad… “look what’s left of me now… “ you used to say when the pain and strength were exhausted. I know at the end, life did not have the same meaning to you. You were tired and sick. You were fragile and strong. You didn’t want to overwhelm your children with the burden of the care. But we were there for you, day and night, just with the same love and sacrifice you gave us as we grew up by your side. Why not? You lost many nights sleep breastfeeding and raising your children with no complain. You were the best mom in the world to us.

Your pain didn’t get to your soul. You spoke to all of you 8 children words of wisdom until the end. You even blessed each one of us and to many more people. Your body was tired, your mind and your soul wanted to be free. I knew it, I saw it and yet, I still prayed to the Lord for a miracle healing or to listen to your cry. You see Mom, it is hard. I understood the end had come for you and for us, but I embraced the hope that it could last a little longer. I did not like to see you in pain. I actually prayed for the pain to go. I don’t know if I did wrong or I did right. I know God understood our hearts.

Mom, I keep deep in my heart the memory of the lasts days and nights we spent together in that hospital. We shared a lot. You told me how much you loved me, how much you adored me. We held hands each night until you fell to sleep while I was stroking your soft white hair. Then I kissed your forehead and prayed again.

You made me understood that you were ready to go. You said that many times. “time is up, time is over.” I was sad. I’m still sad. I was happy, I’m still happy. My heart is at peace. After all, we know the Lord! I know where you are. I know who took you by your hands to heaven. Yes, I know you are fine. You couldn’t be in a better place!

Mom, I still can hear your last words to me holding my hands in your heart and giving me a blessing: “your heart and my heart forever together”. Those last words and tears are carved in my heart forever.

I miss you mom. I love you so much!

Thank you for being my mother. Thank you Lord for given me the best mother in the world.

Rest at peace.